Thursday, September 6, 2012

To my babies : About your Grandmothers

If I could I would bring them back just so you could get to know them.
       None of you ever got the chance to meet your Nana (My Mama) on this side of Heaven. She wanted you all before you were even a twinkle in my eye. Every day she would ask me if I was pregnant yet. She chose her name "Nana". She wanted your Daddy and Papa to take you fishing and hunting with them. I wish I could have taken pictures of her or video taped her talking about her future grand kids. I am so sorry for not thinking ahead. She LOVED you BEFORE you were born. That is TRUE, UNCONDITIONAL love. You could see it in her eyes- they would just sparkle, and she would have the biggest smile on her face. She was SO looking forward to a future with you in it.
         Now about your Grandma (Daddy's Mama)..... She loved you ALL so very very much!
Emily- You remember Grandma rocking you in her chair and the fun you would have when she would pick you up from school. You also remember the love she had for ALL her grand kids. You were so special to her...she always took time out to sit and listen to anything you had to say. She also would tell you how much your Daddy loves you every chance she got. You had a hard time when you were little but it went away at Grandma's house. She took very good care of you with your Daddy and always made sure you had everything you needed when Daddy was working.
          Adams- You are the only grandchild that Grandma was in the room with when they were born. She was SO happy to be there! She didn't want to leave but Grandpa got her to after promising that he would bring her back the next day. Y'all rocked and rocked and rocked some more. When we left the hospital after having you we did two things 1) Ate lunch and 2) Went to Grandma's. She sat in her chair and rocked you all day long. She said you fit perfectly in her arms. The two of you spent many days just rocking. When doctors sent you home because they didn't know what was "wrong" with you or how to help she would sit and rock you. The whole time she would look at your Daddy and I and tell us that there "wasn't a thing wrong with that baby!" ... That you were perfect. She knew exactly what we needed to hear. YOU ARE PERFECT!
           Harold- Grandma's health got worse when I was pregnant with you. We used to go out with Grandma and Grandpa all the time and spend lots of time with them. She enjoyed wondering who you would look like and what your personality would be. She cried when Daddy told her your name was going to be "Harold Alan" just like Grandpa. She said she couldn't think of a better name and that if you ended up half the man he was you would be just fine. She liked to hold and rock you too. When you got a little older she loved to hear what you were doing and what new things you had learned. She called you "Keith's Mini Me" and loved your blond hair. You always sat by her and talked to her, sometimes for hours. You never forgot to tell her you loved her and she always said "I love you too Baby Boy".
           Ellie- Grandma loved it when you would sit with her and love on her. She was so happy to have another grand daughter. We didn't get to spend as much time with her as we wanted because we moved when you were 5 months old. She always told you she loved you and you always gave her kisses. I know she loved that.
           All four of you are precious, sweet, loving, smart, and beautiful. You didn't do anything wrong for your Grandmas to have died.. It's the exact opposite... God loves you SO much that he sent Jesus (his son) to die on the cross to save YOU (and me, and grandmas, and grandpas, and everyone) from sin.  NOTHING can separate you from God if you believe that. Both of your grandmothers believed in God and Jesus so right now they are in Heaven waiting on us! When your life is complete here on Earth and God calls you to Heaven you'll see them again. They are just out of our reach. The GOOD thing about Heaven is that time moves SO fast they won't even know we weren't with them! So smile babies- I love you so much and your grandmas wouldn't want you to be sad.

-Love you always, Mama